The Breakup Note

 "Do I love you?"

Yes, I do.. obviously.

You can consider this in the same way as I love a few dear cousins, my friends, my colleagues, my teachers, my students and some other people..

But I am not afraid to accept that in your case, this love is somehow different.. obviously.. I always considered you more than a friend.

It can be less than the love for my family, my brother and Maa Paa, obviously, they are the foremost priorities in my life, but much more than the people I do not love (just saying. Infact, there is no one I do not love).

So. what's wrong here!?

Did I consider ourselves for possibilities like getting married or being in a relationship?

Naah.. I am, I was very clear.. since starting..

Firstly you are already in a relationship with someone.

Secondly.. I believe in "family first", and I would try not to go beyond my family's choices and wishes, with my maximum possible efforts.

Thirdly.. I don't want any temporary relationship (that's my personal philosophy, and obviously it varies from person to person.. and I respect it if someone does so).

When we interact, sometimes it may appear like I want so..

So yes.. I feel so.. as is obvious, I am a normal human, and I have all the same desires as usually as a common human.

Whenever I express myself, sometimes it might be as simple as flirting, sometimes it might be a kind of affection, while sometimes it can consist a serious emotion.

But what I feel, what I want, and what I do are totally different things. And I am very clear about it.

Why did I interact with your family?

Wherever I feel that I would be positively responded and treated well.. I do so.

I guess.. that's my mistake, I always forget my limitations. And thanks for your lesson about my limits.

Well.. What did I expect from your side?

It should not be like that.. but I would say again that I am a common human.

I should not expect.. but I did so..

I just wanted some talks whenever I am sad, feeling depressed, whenever I need some suggestions, or when I want to share some personal things.

Also, (if easily possible) I wanted some meetings, to go somewhere and spend some time together, just like some hangouts (a kind of..), nothing much.

That's again my mistake.

Still.. I would like to mention..

That "pyaar karna.." is one of my fundamental characteristics.

And obviously.. I cannot change my fundamental characteristics just because of someone's negative responses or because they mistreated me.. And in the same consecution I would do the same in your case.

When I say, "I can not change my fundamental characteristics just because of someone's negative responses or because they mistreated me.." This is a general statement, not a personal comment on you.

At the end.. I want to say,

Although you don't need, you are capable enough for everything, and you have better availability of people in your life, but still I would say, "whenever you need, I will always try to be available with the best of me, and I will always be your well wisher,"

Also, it is very obvious that as time passes all the emotions, memories of all those beautiful moments when we used to interact can fade.. but, in my memories you will be an inseparable part of my life..

Forever.. with love (If you believe so)

Abhishek Vaniya

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